Finals

Truthfully speaking, Biochemistry is killing me softly and gruesomely. A week more time to prepare for the last game, but the pressure is hitting on me already.

1) I pretty much hate memorizing chemical reactions / equations
2) The Kreb's cylcle, Pentose Cycle, and all what-ever-cycles are making my head go dizzzzzzzy
3) The duration of preparing this exam is a little too long till I feel like that day is so unreachable, imagine yourself suffering everyday just for that day to come, it's killing me -.-



7 days more, Free I will be.
7 days more, I can divert my focus on something else more enjoyable, at least.
7 days more, I will be officially 3rd year medical student.

Wish me all the best ;)

-Ys-

Going All-Out

Guns not fully-loaded. Facing tremendous stress right now, part of my subconscious mind tempt me to postpone this war..a day or a week later.


But I don't care, I AM GOING ALL OUT this time!!! I won't let fear take over me (though I really have not enough time to cover all topic...) Argghhh WHO CARES?!! I'll go Kamikaze since my Bazooka isn't loaded at this time!!!



I am currently in epilepsy state right now cause no matter what, I am gonna try my luck tomorrow!! There is NO DELAY, NO FEAR, ONLY AIM FOR VICTORY AND GLORY!!




I know I did my best and all I care is to go all out tomorrow!!! Procrastinate is not taking over me this time, although it sounds so tempting.. ughh...

Why the hell did I post this up?? Reason: as an assurance that I WILL NOT POSTPONE MY EXAM!! Kamikaze tmr.. You readers are my witnesses




Physiology, you are such a bad-ass..And Imma kick your butt!!!!

Life as medical student really can drive one crazy..LOL

-Ys-

Friday!

Today marks the beginning of WEEKENDS = Holidays = Breaks = Rest..

But for me = Maximum Study Mode = Suffer x_____x


Alright, exams are approaching. Tuesday is Physiology!!! Which marks the ultimate beginning of hell. Eh no, hell has begun with piles of materials I have to memorize, and time as usual, never seem to be enough at all.



Haven't got much idea what to talk about right now. Just finding way to chill out a little after 'singing in the rain' just now, got myself all wet and I am pretty much amazed by how heavy today's downpour is..not a very common weather thingy in Russia IMO. Been out the whole day anyways, unforeseen circumstance that screwed up my study plan :p

But, whine not. For this is just a message from the unseen force to put pressure on me to strive further LOLLL how optimistic I am~~~ cowabangaaaa


Time for a cryotherapy in the bathroom after getting myself soaking wet..(There is no hot water supply for 2 weeks already...ice cold water is the treatment I am having..) Just for extra knowledge, I came upon this interesting article about cryotherapy

http://blog.find-healthy-food.com/sperm/cold-shower-stimulates-testicles-so-that-they-produce-more-sperm.html

So whoever wants to be a dad, go for cold shower!!!
I am 'forced' to take cold-shower, so don't think otherwise :)




Wish me luck in the upcoming exams alright, whoever that is reading this although I know I actually kept this blog pretty private so far though it is actually 'public'.. Private as in, really few of you was actually 'told' by me personally or just happened to hop in!! Still, love you guys <3

Not aiming to come up to a popular, super many hits blog like those professional bloggers. Just a leisure stuff for me, rather than wasting too much time on that pathetic No.1 procrastinating virus website called 'FACEBOOK'



I pray for wisdom, I pray for strength to do my best in these few days that I am given presently. And above all, luck is crucial in exams here, so really, may lady luck shine upon me ;)

-Ys-

Facing The Past

Have you ever experience a person's face overshadowing your emotions?


For the entire day your emotions are just sky high and the moment you just happen to visualize a person's face that brought impact to you, your emotion just stumble like crazy.


It just happened to me a sec ago. Letting go of past is easier said than done sometimes. =) a smiley for mood enhancement hehe~

Oh, today is my dear JunKiat's and BoboChan's birthday!! The duo has been part of my teenager life and I wish them all the best for their future undertakings!! Guys..you are so darn lucky to be wished here ;p






nights.

-Ys-

Biggie Gift :)

I am jumping joy now!! can't help it but to express it out.


I've received one biggie gift from my beloved and prettiest Russian teacher, Maria Vadinovna!!! I got aftomat!!! =))) means I am being exempted from sitting Russian examination which will be on the 4th June, I automatically got 'Excellent' mark man!! Lucky lucky meeeeeee...


Initially, I only cling onto hope cause I knew I have did more than 5 mistakes for the latest test which makes me ineligible to receive this 'special treatment'. But she actually said she give me this as a present TODAY!!! soooooooooooooooo, I can focus onto other examinations now without stressing on Russian!!! 1 down, 3 more to go!! Am lucky cause I am the only one given this present in my group :))


My holding onto this slim hope actually bore fruition!! I feel so blessed~~~

Does my teacher just loves me or wad?? ;p
Love them more!! yipeee

-Ys-

Snow White

Everyone does know who Snow White is...right???


Take a closer look

or maybe this...

The million dollar question is, do I look a single bit like Snow White??
Okay, not the size thing being discussed here and the 2nd pic is just for the fun of it.

Recent days I was being complimented as 'Snow White' for having fairer skin than Snow White herself!!! Total dumb-founded.


Admittedly, yeah, my skin do look A LOT more fairer than the moment I was back in Malaysia. But trust me, I ain't very much like Snow White so spare me T_______T

Truth is, I am more like chameleon. My skin gets dark easy, and also gets fair pretty easy too!!
It is like I can change color anytime. (super camouflage genetics) All I need to get dark is to get under the sun for like a week plus, and if I wanted to be fair just stay away from the sunlight. Unlike some people who were born dark, or fair, mine's quite stereotype btw :)



So the thing is, I am not Snow White kays. I am gonna tan my skin the next trip back to Malaysia, just to keep ya'll mouth shut! I personally wanna get tanned too actually, and I misses the beach like crazy.

Pray to get aftomat for Russian this Saturday,
though chances are slim,
but there is still hope,
God bless..

-Ys-

Detractors

Ok, something to share while waiting the food to be cooked.

Last night, one junior came to look for me. I never knew who this guy was, never even spoken to him before, not a single phrase. This pale looking dude actually straight away asked "Shaun, you were planning to quit before right?" (in Chinese)


I reaction was O__o?? (how the heck this fella knew bout it..) oh well, should've guessed about it. One of the quite 'noisy' girl senior told him..again. I bet she told everyone in this hostel last year FML... I was merely sharing my own thoughts a year ago and never 100% confirmed but she spread the news as if it were true, aloud!! Ahh.... somehow I felt pretty stupid to have told her but oh well, let the bygones be bygones :)

Just feeling quite uncomfortable to have my personal stuffs being 'publicized', bet you guys know what I mean.



Okay, so this fella who haven't even been through a single semester, THINKING OF QUITTING!!! Why?? Being told bad things bout this place by 6th year seniors who are leaving this July. Aww come on... turning back when you haven't even passed the very first semester??? for real?? (Somehow I wished I thought of this last year LOL)


Well, I pitied him too actually. For his batch is like the smallest batch ever in history, cause his is the very first batch that begins semester on March (which usually on September..)
My guess is, this uni is getting more and more desperate for overseas students. Reason is still money-wise. Period.




I do not blame the seniors to brain-wash him like what happened to me back then. They were merely speaking by experience. Life here sure is difficult with all the limitations and barriers. Like I always said, life here is like living in a box. You must have the very strong will and hunger to get out of it, beat the system in order to survive strong, and sail along this uni life full of enjoyment and excitement like what we always yearn for.



In the nutshell, we choose to live the way we want to. Making the best out of everything. Excuses are not bringing us anywhere. Instead of amplifying the sad things, why don't we take the initiative to explore what others haven't?? Those who constantly complained will only live the way they see it already.


Russia don't produce good doctor he says? Russia DO produce excellent doctors, the thing is still, we have to beat the poor system here and enhance ourselves if we really want to excel. Since you are already laying your feet onto this ground, stick with it. Modify, modify and change the way you live it!!



It ain't easy for me to having at least 3 close people I used to have here to leave me earlier this semester. It ain't easy for me to cope with the fact that I have to stand on my own here, with those buddies I already put them as my side-kicks leaving, I am basically all alone.



Boy oh boy, dear junior, you really brought back all those 'nightmares' back to me you know..haha..

As for now, I am not giving up YET, maybe never.

"The victory does not give effect. Force gives the battle. If you are struggling and not giving up - this is power." -Arnold Schwarzenegger

Find the way out, make life more happening to yourself, dude. For this semester, at least I know I did. I had a lot of fun compared to my first year. I knew more people, get my ass out of this hostel and know more peops out there, you will never know what you will find out there!! If you keep your ass in the room all the time, do you think you can broaden your communication and reach out for others?? do you think they will come find you automatically?? You are just living life in a box!!




Whoops, I think I blogged overtime. My food is almost burnt!! Gtg~~ but here's some picchas I took with Taiwanese I knew who came to visit Nizhny, and I was a tour guide along with one buddy of mine from my uni and another China girl from another uni.

You Decide the Way You Live
-Ys-

Rise and Shine Baby!

I hereby announce that I totally -FAILED- at waking up early !!!
My plan to wake up at 4.30am has been achieved gracefully with the current time I am blogging is 3.47am..


Hey, that's not a failure you might say. But I gonna confess here that I just can't sleep!!! I basically just 'rest' on my bed for a dreadful 4 hours plus~~~~~ I just can't seem to shut my mind down with all those random thoughts and go into deep sleep!!

In short, I am awake all the time and did not sleep at all. My intention to practice new habit to sleep early, wake early didn't work today =( and now I am still wide awake............and I decided not to sleep till the next 10pm to adjust my time.



Shaun oh Shaun... why do you have so much thoughts in your mind.. can't you just have a clear up all those rubbish at the 'sleeping time' T___T

Is it the green tea that made me hyper or is it just my screwed-up biological clock..







Whatever is it, RISE AND SHINE!!! THE NEW DAY STARTS NOW!!!! WITHOUT SLEEEEEP :p

-Ys-