Worst Insomnia Ever

Last night marks my worst insomnia in history... For some reasons, I can't sleep at all the whole night till now-morning.

Mum 'woke' me up (while I am still awake) just now and now I am going out for Breakfast..
fcuk!! I didn't get to sleep at all.. and will be staying awake this whole day cause relatives from north is here in KL today, have to entertain them.

Adios mate.. time for breakfast after a sleepless nite.

Never shed tears

A simple answer that I have been longing for... an answer that I have been waiting for so long finally replied. Weird, although I have already been expecting this from the very beginning, I somehow still feel the pain.. I always thought that if I received this very answer early I will be relieved but now I rather I never get the reply at all.

It's all too late now, so it's finally over? I wasn't good enough still. I don't even really know who I lose to, LOL!! Is the answer telling me that I have actually wasted 3 years of my lifetime?? Foolish and naive guy I am.. yet rules are rules, I accept my defeat. Maybe it's already a mistake that I make the first move.

How will I make up the lost time.. tell me how...

Shaun is not a person who is going to give up so easily.. is it possible that I would not make a comeback? How long can I stand this... Fine, I shall try to avoid as much as I can from now on, and continue on my long-paused plan--to forget

Though, I shall try not shed any tears no matter how much pain I endured after this day.

Sorry I can't keep my promise this time. I have wasted too much time =/
This is the first and the last time I will be such a fool.

Silence

Too much unwanted noice as dawn draws near will only bring forward frusts and hassles to one weak mind till unscrupulous utterance begins to burst out from an introversive individual.

The moment of silence... a moment of meditation to calm down and flashbacks my own demeanor from the day I first sight the pretty sky. Thinking back, how foolish and immature I am back then, but all seems to be a joke to laugh at. I just can't help to put a on a small smile on my silly face.

The Present, a time to cherish before the day of eternal silence comes by. A time to treasure as many mysteries and surprises were to be unboxed in the remaining chapters in life.

The Past, a nostalgic time to be kept in our memories until the day we all get so old till we can't even remember our own name. A time to be shared with our loved ones, our children during the later phase.

Silence, a time to be in deep thoughts on all surreal facts. A time to rejoice the moment of solitary or whine out all tearful events without others knowledge. Keeping all our feelings deep inside and debate with only one mind to find the answer which will lead us to the light in the middle of pure darkness.

The endeavors of searching for truth in deep silence without influence of the outside world could be a better bridge to light.


Silence too, may be macabre at times when in vain. After all, a person who lies to is actually in vain...and lonely. Silence too, may also the source of great strength and can also be the most powerful scream.

The hectic life in city, the messy mind of mine really needs silence during this moment of recession. Too many unsolved questions remains mystery and unanswered. So, enjoy the silence for now..

CNY eve Post

24 Jan

Yup..mum's birthday is this day. Not having a big party though cause mum always prefer a small celebration =)

Grandma finally checked out from hospital today to celebrate the upcoming Chinese New Year with the whole big family. Her condition worsen compare to last year, but hopefully she can be healthy and fierce again just like last time while I was still a little kid.

Well, visited Grandma in aunt's house and also took the golden opportunity to visit my cute little baby niece!! Her name~ Zhi Ying.

My baby niece..."call Uncle Shaun~ xP"

She sure has grown alot since the last time I saw her, she's now 2 months old

This baby is reaaally cute!! She is extremely talkative... I used the "acha acha bubu kacapa" sort of language to talk with her for hours and she just don't get tired. She just replied the conversation with her own language!! hahaha... what am I typing again..sound quite retard =.="

And then I checked out a pile of ancient black-and-white photographs of my family.

I also checked on the oldies' fashion. And what I found out is, most of the chinese during those days love wearing clothes which are similar to Elvis Presley!! The guys love to wear tight and fitting tops and pants which are tight at the waist and loose at the ends. Hair? Neatly comb aside, just like what we call them 'nerd' hairstyle this century xD Can't find anyone with messy hair that we have these days. Oh yeah, some of them love keeping long hair like Bee Gees too (just like dad when he is young)!! Those with glasses...are very nerdy look cuz the lens are so thick and round @.@

Heard funy stories about mum and dad too. My mum loves listening to music while dad loves to sing!!! Even today, dad non-stop karaoke his oldies at home at full volume, I just can't stand it sometimes =/ Mum loves to listen and dad loves to sing..maybe that's what got them together!! LOLz

Cause those aunties are busy chit-chatting, and I am extremely bored...
I carry out my Modelling / SS-ing Session to test the cameras XD

However, I don't SS in toilet like **YOU KNOW WHO**

Sample pictures
N73 Quality
















N96 Quality






























Sister suddenly buat kacau!! Haha..1st time ever I putting up a picture with her..












N85 Quality...sorry la, lupa bawa HP..









































OK!!! 1st time ever I post so many SS photos in a single post of my BloG!!! Hopefully this will be the first and the last time I do this!! Quality check: I still suka N85 punya~ =P



25 Jan (ToDAY)

Today is CNY eve babe!! Time to start numerous house visitings, filling up tummy with food and collect a lot of ANG POWs monehh!! Hahaha...

Tonight will be family reunion dinner...an extremely busy night indeed. Firstly, I will attend Reunion Dinner at some expensive restaurant with my dad's family side and then rush to reunion dinner at my mother's side. Jadi, Shaun is going to put on weight today =D Midnight will be the annual 'gambling' session just like every single year before =P Shhhhhsshhh..!!! don't tell police k xDD


Time to celebrate CNY peops!! Enjoy!

-Ys-

Update!! (R-A-N-D-O-M)

Quite some time I left this blog not updated. Sorry to keep you all waiting cause I was too busy / too lazy to make an update =P Got a feeling that I will stop blogging soon, just like what I anticipated last month xD Anyway, After being 'inspired' by so many readers, I will make a random update for now ok?

How's holiday so far...err, went for quite a number of outings but I am not gonna write ALL of them down in this blog. Hahaha.. even the Phuket Trip I haven't got the time to blog it since 2 months ago!!


23rd Jan

Yu Shaun Had a haircut for New Year!!!

err...maybe it looks no difference from before....

fast-forward to dinner>> Had dinner at BSC Complex Chilli's Steakhouse

My paling mahal 'rib-eye' steak in this whole Steakhouse..

Sis' Southwestern "dunno what name" Lamb

And the bill is around Rm400.. After having this dinner, I felt a lil guilty when I think about all my friends who are working so hard to earn Rm4-6 per hour while I just swallowed Rm400 in my tummy =P But, I am not the one to pay the bill, cause I CANNOT AFFORD IT 'yet'. hahaz!

But then, the steak here sure is worth it. I went to Victoria Station and The SHip not long ago and I can say Chilli's has the thickest steak and better service compare to the others.. I will try out the others later. BSC Chilli's recommended.


24 Jan (TODAY)

Today is a special day. Why? Cause it's my dearest mommy's Birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!! =D
you are the best mom ever
you rocks!!! <3

A card made for mum by:
Dad
Sis
I

next...what to post...

ok, these pictures will do =)

I stomp upon these pictures way back when I was searching for 'Tips' for my addmath Project last year.

These essays are hilarious!! (Click on pics to enlarge)

These essays are awesome!!! Since I stopped schooling for quite some time now..I wonder whether I can produce such fantastic essays..hehex


And also, COOL answers from COOL people


These answers really made my day!!

I apologise to post all these craps, cause as I said, THIS POST IS R-A-N-D-O-M!!!! =P
Hopefully it made your day too!!




What's next to crap...mmhmm.. OH!!

N85 vs N96

Recently I got another New Phone, a NOKIA N96!!!!!!!!! woohoo~


Hahaha!! Am I a luckiest person or what??!! A N85 and now N96!!! BUT, I am only having one of them.. after a long decisive moments, I chose N85!!! Sis will be taking the N96.. but indirectly, "I have both xP"


Review: by Yu Shaun
These two phones have almost the same features basically. But the price is such a huge difference. N96 however, is more pricier.. It cost RM2400+ currently whereas N85 is selling at a price near RM2000 in stores. N96 has a bigger LCD screen than N85 and probably better audio and visual quality, but I think I will still stick with my N85 for various reasons..

The reasons are:

1. N85 has a amazingly improved battery life than all nokia phones!! N95 on the other hand has a poor battery life although it is a damn freaking POWERFUL phone.
2. N85 has an Active Matrix OLED 16 million colors screen!! N96 only has TFT 16 Million color screen. This OLED screen is a real cool screen which shows brighter and sharper colour, and I like it. But, N96 has higher definition and the images are sharper though..
3. N85 is less bulky and the design is hotter =P
4. It is a more latest model compare to N96
5. I tested the speed.. N85 loads very quickly!! N96 loads around 0.3-0.4 seconds slower due to higher memory capacity i guess..
6. N85 FM Transmitter ROCKS!!!

Above are couple of reasons the bro pick N85.. both phones have 5 megapixels but I tell you, the quality is totally different!!! N96 somehow shows a more brighter image. N96 have a incredible memory of 16 gigabyte mass memory and it can be increased to 24 GIG O.O" Though..this N85's 8 gig is enough for me I think.

Thats all for the reviews..maybe I will write more later after I test both phones long enough to judge them.

Both mobile phones by Nokia is near perfection..sweeet!!

Hopefully my review more or less helps someone to decide which phone to buy, cause both phones are having 'cold war' in the market. But if you got too much money to spend, BUY BOTH xD

Attention: Don't call me rich ok.. I AM REALLY A POOR KID..err..abit too over, I am just AVERAGE!!!! phones...doesn't really shows one's wealth =) I don't own a Rich-Man-Only phones with diamonds on it which cost millions of dollars..

woowww.. I update alot today, so don't complain k!!


Next thing to crap...I want to shout out loud that

I MISS HER SO MUCH now =(

ok, quit babbling already, time so say bubbye..

Lastly, I WISH EVERYBODY

GONG XI FA CAI
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
May Prosperity and Health
be with
All of You Always

To those who balik kampung, have a safe trip!!

-Ys- signing off

New Phone

Cause of accompany-ing someone at 'KTV' till 4am, woke up at 2pm today XD

I got a shock when I saw a brand new phone when I was still in my pyjamas- Nokia N85!! I thought it was someone else's phone until I was told that it was a surprise present from my parents O_O"

Yeah~ I was surprised...very. I thought I was dreaming.. A phone which current price ranges from RM1600-RM1800.. and just like what I wrote in my Christmas wishlist -- a phone with WiFi!!

latest N series model...a very expensive phone =="



At the meantime, I am possessing a Nokia N73..
Oh my Nokia N73..I feel like it's almost time for us to breakup~ xP

However, sis will be using N85 at the moment cause her current HP cacat..
and I was like.. $%#@#%^$%^@%#^@%!!!!! Form 3 girl using Nokia N85?!! No jokes man..

so I will stick with N73 for now....sigh




Just took a Personality Test from Phui Yuk's blog

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
(Yupz, agree!!! That is what I always do while chairing meetings XD..but not anymore)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
(yea.. I easily attracted to a person's personalities than looks.. I usually fall in love with those smarter than me =.=")

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
(Yeah, but I always don't have the chance to know them well...)

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
(Yeap, One Shaun, One heart, One beloved, no others =D)

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
(indeed..)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
(Yup...that's one important point on choosing career)

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
(maybe that's why I still having dilemma on future career!!!)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
(I settle ma' own probs)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
(100% agree with that!! People just keep on bugging me on all sorts of issues, and yes, I do give all the best advices I can.. Yet, I can't even solve my own problems and no one to refer to =( )

My First Movie For 2009...Gone!!

All thanks to the Short girl, Katrina Kuan for consistently inviting me for a movie...asking me for the whole night yesterday and this afternoon..just never gave up no matter how many times I rejected.. I have been so lazy to get out of the house today.. However, since she's so got 'seng yi', I gave in xD but it's really last minute, I made up my mind just one hour before the outing..

Went to Pavilion at 6pm..meet up with Katrina. Then went to visit those pitied-ones > Chee Hoe and Pui Yan who are currently working at Pavilion. Kinda funny seeing them so busy and working obediently to their boss. Also met Chee Hoe's 'Fat ass' boss!

Met up with Jeremy and Terence. Then went to Starhills for some reasons and then Time Square for movie and dinner. Actually Katrina and I had already planned to watch this horror movie but Terence kononnya don't want cause scared..XD Too bad, at 7pm there are no other choice than this horror movie =)


Well, the synopsis you can check it on the net =P This movie..yeah, a bit horror but not as scary as I expected it to be. But watching my friends' reactions like Katrina holds up her bag and Terence almost jumped out of the seat is so freaking hilarious!! Me? Cool as usual..nothing 'that' special, just the stupid sound effects..Haha.. But still consider a good storyline, not like other horror movies, just stupid ghosts coming out to scare people for some weird reasons..at least these ghosts had good reasons to attack on human. At times, the prolonged sound effects can make us sleepy too.

Cut the crap, just that watching horror movie with friends is one of my long waited chance, cause no one really wanna follow me like this crazy Katrina xP Had a great time looking at all your reactions =)

Before all of us went off by 10pm, Katrina suddenly asked 'jom, pictures!!' =.=

Since I came all the way out, must 'jau' her rite..LoL

~The 4 of us~

Kat, Jeremy, Me and Terence

The Pig and I

Show you this noob smile for having so many takes =P

To kat: it's your priviledge that I came out and sacrificed my very first movie for this year k!! XP
Anyway, thanks for the very persistent invitation... I very 'pui fuk' you leh..hahahax!!


It's late now..stil can't sleep, dumb sickness...wating for 3am to come~
Goodnitez!!

A Simple but Meaningful Birthday..

Completely Adapted from Yu Shaun's Personal Diary:

23/9/2008

To me, today's considered as my Big Day! Exactly 17 years ago, today's the day I was brought to this world. Happy or not, this is who I am now.

Yet, this year's birthday falls in the middle of SPM Trials examinations. Deep in me, i thought today will just end up like as if nothing happened at all, just another normal day. Every year I was just celebrating a simple birthday, I don't hope much and I am happy with it. It's been a long time since others throw a surprise party of stuffs like that on me. Plus, Everyone this year is busy studying on Trials, including me myself.

However, at sharp 12.ooam today, I was totally touched by more than 10 messages from friends who still remember my birthday. Some whom I lost contact with for a long time also wished me. I am so deeply touched. I didn't thought that simple wishes like that actually made me feel so contented. Although this year my D.O.B falls in the middle of examinations period, I feels that this year's birthday is way better than years before...


Wishes from (from my H/P):

1. Pui Yan (11.52pm)
-Terkejut when I got your message, how did you know my DOB?! you are the first, but haven't pass 12 =P anyway, thanks =D

2. Shi Chee (11.56pm)
-A good friend I knew from Gathering, and I can't believe we actually kept in touch for so long!! Miss ya since Melacca Trip =) Thx for da wishes!!

3. Yein Jiun (12.02am)
-You are officially the first to wished me on my 17th birthday!! =D Thanks Yein Jiun!! It's been a long time I haven't heard from you..let's hang out again sometimes ya..good luck in college!!

4. Win Jinn (12.02am)-Just seconds later to be the first.. =(
-A super incredible long message I received (equivalent to 6 pages)!! Probably the longest sms I ever received, and it's a birthday wish =D Terharu till wanna cry dy..hahax, thx for the super 38 message from the moz 38 Jinn XD I Promise will keep that message with me forever =D

5. Phui Yuk (12.03am)
-My dearest Panda Queen xP You actually didn't forget my BIRTHDAY!!! I thought you have forgotten this owner here~ sayang you more kay?? feed you more till fat fat always!! XD Panda form 5 this year yea..must study hard for SPM ok. Gambateh~

6. Win Nie (12.04am)
-Dai kah jeh from SAB!! wow..I did not expect your msg at all!! you knew my birthday from friendster hor =P I know you thought that you are the first but too bad la..anyway, I appreciate your message alot! thanks for the wishes even though it's in the middle of exams!!

7. Boey (12.08am)
-A new friend I made through Jinn!! ultimately, talking to you sure don't make me feel bored =) can crap whole day with you xD thanks for the very very nice wishes yea. Even though we knew for just awhile, but you sure are a fantastic friend. Btw, Where is my Boxers??? LoL...actually got a gigantic present for you geh..hehe..too bad my present missing =P notti MUI MUI!!!

8. 016-3940838 (12.17am)
-LoLx..don't know who you are but still thanks for the wishes k =D

9. Sze Kei (12.36am)
-947!! The president from Desa Perdana!! hahax..thanks so many times for da unsuspected message ya!! Haven't contact you for so long since you change your number, suddenly wished me..i Got a shocked!! and it's exam period..i din knw you remembered.. Miss the days we cooperated for RCG =)

10. Jun Kiat (1.05am)
-Finally!!! A wish from a GUY!!! The great GoldFish which transformed into Wu Guai Lou Dau suddenly..hahax! I still can never forget how you annoy and molest me in school =.=" everyday come near me and shout " shaunnnnnnn..." haha.. miss those days! Anyway, I was incredibly grateful to receive a msg frm a guy...or are you not? =P

11. Pyin Yea (1.13am)
-My dearest lui lui from SBU =D Love to hear your stories!! Papa very happy that you remembered my birthday today even though you are so busy studying midnight =).. i like the part you say, "imagine me singing happy birthday to you.."haha..cute =) Owe you one whole can of lolipops ya XD dun worry, papa will be heroic and handsome always!!

12. Melissa (1.35am)
-A friend from SMK Perimbun!!! I have known you for 2 years right?? Also from RC Gathering!! hahax..keep in touch k!! cherish our friendship =)

13. Joo Wen (6.38am)
-Oh my gosh..a tuition friend. I really did not know you will wish me...and how you know my DOB.. thanks alot k =) you even gave me present O.O even though tuition is over, I won't forget you one..not like what you told me XD so dun worry. Keep in touch k.

14. Li Jin (7.03am)
-APD Form 6 gal~ the gorgeous singer I know =) thanks for ur wishes and cake for you dear Mr.President!! hehex! Although I have retired, you don't notti notti and work hard to uplift the board ya..

15. Wenjing (2.38am)
-You almost forgotten my birthday!! hohoho~ nvm lar, at least you remembered just in time XP thanks for your wishes too..oh ya, remember you say want to make nice easter egg as present for me?? hahax!! joking oni lar, dun have to =)

16. Shok Yeen (3.41pm)
-Another Form 6 APD gal~ hey, thanks for ur wish and also your present!! (da wallet) you did not choose the wrong present k, juz perfect!!! I was looking for a wallet all the while, and now I an using the wallet you gave me =D you ah..always kacau Excos wan...don't be too 'monkey' in the board la, you are now Office Director right?? correct me if I am wrong..take care of the board for me ya..

17. Sam (7.20pm)
-Sam!!! The person who shares the same birth date as ME!!! Happy birthday to you too boy!!! hahaha...sorry that I can't recognise you when you called. But I did not expect you to have my contact number =) Juz, keep in touch always even if it's already after YLP!

18. Yuan Yi (phone call)
-Mr. Tall guy I knew in YLP!! gosh..you are so freaking tall you know, even though you are years younger than me!! how can you be taller than I AM!!! When you told me you are Form 1 last time, I was stunned xP anyway, terima kasih for da call.

(THE BELOW PART IS SPECIAL ADD-ON...NOT FROM MY DIARY)

That's all I have in my contacts. The rest are from MSN and comments from friendster which I haven't listed down like Mun Yeu, Paik Mann, Wilshen, Sai How...and others.

What else can I say?! So touching moment! So many people actually remembered my birthday today although I was so stuck in studying Physics for Trials tomorrow!! I was burning midnight oil and the handphone kept on beeping non-stop. The feelings can't be explained in words.. For the very first time I ahd so many wishes although I did not have any party going on..

Weirdly, all are girls and only a few guys in the list..hahaha...am I communicating with girls more than guys?? Loh Yuan Yi which I didn't keep in touch with him for even more than 1 year called me...Szekei remembered my 3square=9..even Win Nie wished..Jinn and Boey too, want buy a box of "akehm" as my BD present XD They were so funny..

Today is Physics Trials exams..early in the morning, I was surprised by the Lower Six girls in the VIAVB office when there suddenly gave me a surprise present!! Li Jin and the rest bought me a pretty decorated slice of cake while Shok Yeen even made me a 'shark faced' card and bought a wallet for me! Wow....I seriously did not know I would have received all these..Thanks, my lower 6, appreciate it all. Thanks to everyone =)



After school, I had another surprise.. I was walking back home then suddenly Alice, Jason, Wee Kiat and Mandy bumped into me!! They gave me a bottle of wine xD!!! Then we went off for a drink for awhile..and a cake!! those 4 close friends of mine from other schools, came here to present me this wine although it's exam period!!! Touchy touchhy..

In tuition, Joo Wen suddenly came to me after class and gave me a small porcelain vase as a Birthday prezzie and wished happy birthday =) I was stunned by her sudden action..but really do appreciate it! Thanks Joo Wen..

At night, mum bought me a birthday cake to celebrate in a simple way as usual. Another simple yet memorable day of my birth. Well, I still have to suffer for another few more days to end this trials. I have to work ! Never give up, EVER!!

Written on:
11.00pm, 23rd September 2008


This whole post is inspired by Wenjing's birthday post xD